Umm, snow? Where are you snow? Here... boy. Well, it did snow, and I actually saw it because I woke up coughing (night time / mouth breathing / dry throat kind of thing) at 11:30 and was worried that I had not turned down the thermostat so I went downstairs to check it. The thermostat was down where it should be (no higher than 60), and through the windows on the front door I could see snow dancing through the air in the glow of the streetlight. But alas, this morning, there was hardly anything to show for it. I mean, less than a dusting, if that's possible. Oh well, we're supposed to get some more on Thursday night.********************We do a lot of talking on the late shift. The deal is two people sit at a collaborative table and log in to computers there and then all the phones are fed in to two phones there and you answer them. That way if anyone on the west coast calls, they'll still get a live person until 7 PM EST. You don't get a lot of calls so you can still get plenty of work done and then you can also chat with your coworker.Tonight the girl I was working with told me she had given her resignation that day. I knew she was making plans: there were lots of hints and overheard whispers, but now it's official. She claims it's always been her dream to live in NYC, but I think it's mostly because she's dating someone whp lives there now. I mean, a few years ago, she was looking to move to Charlotte, NC and a year after that, she bought a condo in CT and said she wasn't planning on moving. Anyway she's moving to New York and she got a job at a competitor and will have her own office and assistant (!). I'm happy for her. She wanted it, she works hard and she deserves it.But it's not what I want. I would think it would be great to move to New York to work at a library or museum or something! I just don't want to change jobs and stay in insurance. I told her about my dilemma with the school job and how I sort of hoped I didn't get it. Then I checked my e-mail and I found I was rejected! I was both relieved and insulted. Not really insulted, but you know how rejection always hurts even when it's from something you don't want that badly. So I told my coworker, "Looks like my wish came true. I didn't get the job."She was nice about it (especially when I told her the job was 40 miles away!). I told her that I had promised myself I could buy a new workout top (something I don't really need, but just want) from one of my favorite catalogs (Athleta) if I didn't get the job so now I'm all excited to do that. And I started thinking about all the expenses I have to deal with and feeling more and more relieved. I'm just going to work hard and keep my eyes open and eventually I will get a job in my field, even if it's not until I actually have my MLS.********************Now that I have the new version Blogger, I can use labels for my posts, and I was wondering if I should have one called "fat." But I try to stay away from self deprecation and I know I'm not "fat" exactly, just overweight (BMI of 26.5). I've been overeating lately and I just "feel fat." "Feeling fat" means feeling bad about my eating and my size. But I don't know about having fat or even feeling fat as a label because I'm really against giving in to negativity. Hmm...I'm sounding pretty positive here, but even with the fat thing aside, I'm facing those Dark Thoughts. Why am I here? What is the point? We're all just going to die. I mean I really think the only reason I'm here is because I happened to be born. I don't have any kind of mission in life and I don't believe in that "we're all here for a reason" crap. Some time during the last year, I bought the book If You Meet the Buddha on the Road, Kill Him! after my therapist mentioned it. I guess now would be a good time to start reading it.Labels: blogging, library science, the blues, work posted by Miss Rachel 1/31/2007 08:14:00 PM . . .
Labels: blogging, library science, the blues, work
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