I stayed up late watching a movie about anorexia on You Tube called Thin. It's an HBO documentary about a bunch of women in a treatment center for anorexia. Fascinating stuff. Of the four women featured who ended their treatment there, only one of them was reported to be "maintaining a healthy weight" which I assume means she recovered. Of course, this happened after she relapsed and attempted suicide. And of course, we know your weight doesn't always mean you don't have an eating disorder. Although I am glad I don't have anorexia, I have these perverse feelings of fascination with it, that sometimes border on envy. I have a pretty healthy attitude towards weight and fat now, but there still lurks the tiniest bit of feeling that there's nothing worse than being fat and there's nothing better than being thin. Intellectually, I know that's not true. Even emotionally, I know that's not true. And I know I'm not "fat" exactly, just a little overweight. I don't even want to be super skinny, but still, I have the tiniest bit of envy for anorexic people.I know that's messed up. I'm just being honest here. Anyone else know what I mean?Labels: fat, watching posted by Miss Rachel 12/28/2007 07:06:00 AM . . .
Labels: fat, watching
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