Miss Rachel
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Trying to get through the day with just a little piece of happiness...

Saturday, May 10, 2008
Saturday Video Update

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Monday, April 14, 2008
A Big Ol' General Update

Well, I have somewhat successfully done the website host switchover. The "somewhat" means the blog archives are not showing up, and I haven't figured out how to make them do so at this point. Also, I imagine a lot of the photos in these archived posts are no longer there since they were "ftp-d" to the old host. But since the archives aren't there then this detail is kind of moot for now. I'm hopeful that I will eventually be able to fix the archive situation. As far at the photos are concerned, I don't think I'll be sifting through past posts and trying to figure what needs to move over. I mean, you can just go to Flickr if you want to see photographs, right?

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In other news I worked a hell of a schedule last week because I planned to do 4 10-hour days, and then take Friday off, but I ended up having to work Friday since my coworker was out due to a death in her family. Note that I don't blame her for my tough work week, but it was tough nonetheless. And of course, I put my homework off till the end of the week because it seems that's just what I do these days.

So too much time at work, too much worry about schoolwork made me ready to just collapse after class on Saturday. And collapse I did. All the way through Sunday. I couldn't get myself to do much but read (not for school) online and off. I finally did some stuff today (I had today off as compensation for having to work Friday) - grocery shopping, errands, cleaning the microwave, loads and load of laundry, that kind of stuff. But I continue to fret over schoolwork and not do it. So I'm officially calling off the fretting for tonight at least. I mean, if I'm not gonna do it, I'm not gonna do it. Why fret? (Easier said than done.)

Truth be told, I've been a bit depressed. And I've never been the sort to just throw myself into work to get over it. I'm more of the lie around and wait for the feelings to pass type. I'm pretty sure these blues are from anxiety about schoolwork. I don't know why it's such a big deal for me. I mean, how many times have I posted about this kind of thing? I just suck at self motivation and I also suck at dealing with stress. I mean, the way I feel about getting my final project done is the way most people probably feel about... well, I don't know... but I'm sure having to write a paper for school is one of those "problems" to be glad you have. I know this, but I still suck at dealing with this kind of thing and end up working myself into something of a "state" over it. Blah!

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On to something completely different...

I got an iTunes gift card from my brother for my birthday, and today I used some of it to buy the following songs: Dancing in the Moonlight by King Harvest, Fool (If You Think It's Over) by Chris Rea, In a Broken Dream by Rod Stewart with Python Lee Jackson, Just Dropped in (To See What Condition My Condition Was In) by Kenny Rogers and the First Edition, Music Box Dancer by Frank Mills, She's a Rainbow by The Rolling Stones, and Tighten Up, Part 1 by Archie Bell and the Drells. Musically, I'm stuck in the last century pretty much, pre-1980, and I think that's how it's going to stay.

One thing I did on Sunday is that I finished reading The Magnificent Ambersons. I had bought the book a year or two ago, started it, and then stopped because I just hated George Amberson Minafer so much. But I picked it up again recently, persevered and found it to be quite a good story, and well written too. Now I think I will have to see the movie which seems to be more critically acclaimed than the book.

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Reading: The Magnificent Ambersons by Booth Tarkington.

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Monday, March 17, 2008
Books, Music and Movies (plus Technical Note)

Reading: The Diary of a Young Girl by Anne Frank. I picked this up a few months ago, and then put it down when I got near the end. I kind of didn't want to get to the end because well, we all know how it ends, and it's just so sad. It especially bothers me that she and her sister died only a few months before the camps were liberated. Anyway, I finished it yesterday. I love reading journals and this is no exception. Even putting aside (as much as you can) the big Holocaust story behind it, it still stands up as a well written and engaging read.

Listening: Buffy Sainte-Marie - She Used to Want to be a Ballerina
Dusty Springfield - Dusty in Memphis
Bob Dylan - Highway 61 Revisited

Watching: The Shady Hill Kidnapping (1982) starring George Grizzard, Polly Holliday and Celeste Holm. A wonderful and darkly humorous John Cheever play about the fictional town of Shady Hill, Connecticut. I saw this on PBS back when it came out and was thrilled to find it is now available on DVD.

Ratatouille (2007) starring Patton Oswalt and Janeane Garofalo, among others. Cute Pixar entertainment about being different and creative and loving food, featuring rats and people.

Technical Note I've begun the process of changing hosts so this site might go off line briefly.

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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Still here. I'm working, exercising, watching, reading (online and off), eating, sleeping. In some ways, I feel I'm in a form of stasis, existing within a bubble of space and time with no real changes. School starts this Saturday, and I expect that will change the scenery (literally and figuratively) some.

Reading: Speak Softly, She Will Hear by Pam Lewis. I started reading this on Friday, August 24 and finished it on Sunday, August 26. I had to find out what would happen.

Winesburg, Ohio by Sherwood Anderson. I picked this one out of my bookshelf this past weekend. It has the name of girl from Westover in it. She threw it out at the end of the year and I picked it up. I wasn't friends with her. As I remember, she seemed rather awful: cold and insensitve. But the book seems good.

Watching: The US Open tennis tournament. Too bad one of my favorites, Nadal, is out.
The Office, Season One. Squirmingly awkward humor.
The West Wing, Season Three.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Season Three.
Weeds, Season Two. This is actually a pretty stupid show, but I keep watching it anyway.

Crimes of the Heart (1986) starring Diane Keaton, Sissy Spacek and Jessica Lange. This is a favorite of mine, and I wanted to share it with Sweetie. I must admit it seemed a bit slower than I remember, but there are still things I love about it: "Grandad's book, Diseases of the Skin" and "Cat and Woman found in Basement. Double Suicide."

Grizzly Man (2005). Just watched this tonight. Amazing story of an amazing, although misguided, person who loved and lived among Grizzly Bears and eventually died by one of them. The story is tastefully and beautifully told in this film.

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Saturday, August 25, 2007
It's the weekend again, and I am SO glad. With the last weekend in Rockport and the weekend previous to that jam-packed with activities, I am so psyched to just hang out at home and veg. Of course, I have some errands (buying groceries) and chores to do, but other than those, no responsibilities.

I started another great book yesterday, Speak Softly, She Can Hear by Pam Lewis. She and my friend, Writer, are friends. I remember years ago, Writer invited me to go to a reading event with her, and Lewis was there and read an excerpt from her book (this book!) that was not out yet, and I knew I wanted to read it. It came out a couple of years ago, and the other day when I was having trouble thinking of anything I wanted to read, it finally occurred to me, and I looked it up online and found they had a copy "on the shelf" at the
Lucy Robbins Welles Library in Newington. They also had a copy of Still Alive a holocaust memoir by Ruth Kluger, that I want to read. So I drove over there and took them both out.

Great library! Beautiful inside and out with a fairly substantial looking collection. They also have a little coffee counter there called the Cup and Chaucer. What a cute name, huh? The coffee "nook" wasn't open at the time I was there (8 PM), but it was nice to see. One of the things I love about the library where I am taking classes is that there is a cafe there. Maybe the combination of cafes and libraries (although the Cup and Chaucer is not really a cafe, just a counter) is an emerging trend. Coffee and books are certainly a great combination.

Reading: The White Hotel by D.M. Thomas. Great book. Pretty harrowing in parts, but lots of sex too. Writer said, "That book turned me on." She told me someone once said to her that if you could get through that book without masturbating or having sex, there was something wrong with you. ;-)
Speak Softly, She Can Hear by Pam Lewis.

Watching: Me and You and Everyone We Know (2005) starring John Hawkes and Miranda July. A great indie movie. Reminded me a little of The Puffy Chair, but it was way better (not that The Puffy Chair was bad). This was recommended to me by my friend Mary and now I can recommend it too.

The West Wing, Season Three. This is getting pretty intense and scary with CJ's being stalked!

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Friday, August 10, 2007
It feels as if most of my time these days is spent working, exercising and reading (online and off), but today I went up to visit my friend Mary in Massachusetts. The original plan was to have lunch and then go for a swim in her pool, but today dawned rainy and downright cold for August so we didn't do the pool part.

Her boyfriend, K, had the day off today so the three of us headed out to a Greek restaurant for lunch. They're both pretty heavy and they're currently dieting doing Nutri system, but that's one of those diets where you have to eat mostly packaged food so they weren't following it at the restaurant. Mary spoke a bit of the thrill of eating "bad" food (i.e. she had some white bread with butter and we all shared an order of onion rings). I don't like to refer to foods as good and bad, but I didn't let it bother me.

Some time during lunch pot smoking came up. Turns out, K had some and asked if I liked it, and I said yes I did. In fact, I said, "I LOVE that stuff." I used to be a total pot head, but now I hardly ever smoke. The last time I had some I think was in 2004. Although I'm glad I don't smoke regularly anymore, I was definitely up for it today.

After lunch we drove around for a while looking at all the cool old houses in the area and then we headed back to their house. Their house is a gorgeous old Victorian, but the inside of it is a chaos of boxes and boxes full of stuff with more stuff on top of that and so on. We eventually cleared some space on the couch and sat down to watch some TV and have a little smoke. They have Tivo and Mary suggested we watch this show from a series they had taped from VH-1 about drugs in America.

The show was good, but K would pause it occasionally and we'd all talk for a while. Mary is a total bird freak and she kept exclaiming about the "cute" birds that were out at the feeders they had. I have to say the birds were pretty impressive - there were lots of gold finches, some cardinals and even a couple of woodpeckers. Fascinating to see all those since most of what I see at my feeder is house sparrows and starlings and other "dull" colored birds.

After we finished watching the first installment of the drugs series, we watched a clip from the Onion and then the starting of Big Love. I had mentioned I used to watch Dr. Who a long time ago on public TV when I lived in Vermont and K said there were new episodes on now and wanted me to see some of it so we watched part of an episode. I would like to be able to start watching Dr Who again, and start from the beginning. I think there is tons of it though, and I'm not sure it's available on Netflix although I have seen some VHS tapes of it at the library.

I headed home a little after 6 and got home at 7. I gave Blue and Trinka some pets and gave Sweetie (who was out getting our order from Szechuan Tokyo when I first arrived) lots of hugs and kisses. Then we ate our food and watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer. It was a good day.

Watching: Charlotte Gray (2001) staring Cate Blanchett, Billy Crudup and Michael Gambon. I've been wanting to see this movie for a while since it is about Vichy France which I didn't even know about until I took a European history class a few years ago. Although I enjoyed watching this movie (the acting, costumes and cinematography were excellent), the story didn't amount to much. I felt as if I had seen this before - there would be a shocking revelation (turns out Michael Gambon is part Jewish) and there would be redemption thanks to the courage of our plucky heroine. However, the redemption was very slight - she risks her life to type a letter?
Roger Ebert's review sums it up well.

The West Wing, Season Three.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Season Three.

Reading: Victory by Joseph Conrad. I finished this last weekend, and I feel a real sense of accomplishment since it was something I should have read back in high school, but never did until now. It's a bit dense, and there is definitely an ethnocentric perspective, but it was still a pretty good read.

The White Hotel by D.M. Thomas. Now I'm reading this. Very intriguing with lots of sex and death imagery.

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Sunday, July 22, 2007
Nothing of much excitement going on here. I have just been working, sleeping, eating, exercising, reading, watching, listening... you know, the usual. Also, I have been feeling much better lately. I imagine the Cymbalta must be working. After a little while, the nausea stopped, and then I eventually increased the dosage to 60 mg, as instructed by my doctor, and that was that.

I have enjoyed reading two books since the spring semester ended. It took me a while to get into Pride and Prejudice, but once I did, I found myself wanting to keep going to find out what would happen. I mean, I knew Elizabeth Bennet would marry Darcy, but I wanted to find out how it would come to be. The other book I read was Digging to America by Anne Tyler, and I was immediately enthralled by it. I read it in about three days. The characters and situations are SO real, and the main character makes an important and believable change in her life by the end of it. Digging to America is one of the best books I have read in a long time.

I am currently reading Victory by Joseph Conrad.
Monique has said that she hates Joseph Conrad, but this was after reading Lord Jim and I have a hunch Victory might be better. Also, I am determined to read it because when I was a miserably unhappy high school junior, I took a class called The Modern British Novel and this book was one that was assigned that I didn't read. I mean I guess I must have read some of it, because I passed the class, but I was a master bullshitter and was able to pull off Bs and Cs back then while doing a minimum of work. Anyway, I want to read it now in the spirit of completion. The other books in the class (which I also didn't read) were Brideshead Revisited, Where Angels Fear to Tread and Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. I have since read Brideshead and Angels, but I guess I will need to complete Portrait at some point. Anyway, so far Victory is fairly good, definitely well written. I can't remember if there were other books assigned in the class, but it occurs to me that it seems a very sexist selection. I mean, there were female modern British novelists too, right?

Today Sweetie and I went out for brunch at It's Only Natural. Sweetie loves going out to breakfast and now that he is eating vegan, his choices are limited so he really wanted to try this. I told him as long as I had time to prepare mentally for leaving the house on Sunday, which is traditionally my "sanctuary" day, I would go with him. So we went. I had a cafe au lait and the strawberry pancakes which were served with scrambled tofu and homefries. Sweetie had acai juice and the scrambled tofu breakfast which was served with broccoli with vegan hollandaise sauce, grilled bread and homefries. As usual, our meals were delicious if a bit pricey. I filled out the survey that came with the check which asked if we would still go there if they moved to New Haven, and although I didn't say "we'd cry" as Laura did, I wrote that we would go much less often. They also asked where we would like them to move and I wrote "Hartford or thereabouts" or that they could stay in Middletown. I don't want my favorite restaurant to move farther away!

Reading: Digging to America by Anne Tyler
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen
Victory by Joseph Conrad

Watching: Serenity (2005) starring Nathan Fillion, Gina Torres et al.
The Looney Toons Golden Collection.
The West Wing, Season Three.
The Control Room (2005) An excellent documentary about Al Jazeera and the war in Iraq.
All in the Family, Season One.

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Monday, May 07, 2007
I don't feel like posting, but I want to get back into it so here are some random bits:

I finished my paper, presented it to my class and handed it in. There is one more class (with other students' presentations), but my work is done until the summer session starts.

My workout plan for the week: weights today and Thursday, plus three cardio workouts.

Spring is beautiful, but I'm already mourning the ephemeral quality of some of the blooms. Forsythia and magnolia are almost gone by. Lilacs will be out soon.

I started reading Pride and Prejudice yesterday, but mostly all I want to do is watch videos.

I have been watching tons of vidoes, especially Poirot. I also caught up on some Ugly Betty yesterday. I got hooked on The Amazing Race, but now it's over.

Watching: Battlestar Galactica, Season 2.5.
Six Feet Under, Season 5.
Ugly Betty
Rocky and Bullwinkle, Season 1.
Poirot: The Veiled Lady, The Lost Mine, The Cornish Mystery, The Disappearance of Mr. Davenheim, Double Sin, The Adventure of the Cheap Flat, The Kidnapped Prime Minister, The Adventure of the Western Star, How Does Your Garden Grow? The Tragedy at Marsdon Manor, The Double Clue, The Mystery of the Spanish Chest.

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Wednesday, May 02, 2007
"Let's start thinking about a draft where the children of the investment bankers might even have to go fight. This might concentrate our thinking about the war considerably and might make us a bit more cautious next time." This is a line from
an excellent editorial on economics and the Iraq War from a Republican, no less.

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I like Slate even though I don't always agree with the viewpoints of their writers. Dear Prudence is certainly no exception, but the third letter inher April 26 column is interesting. Prudence's response is decent, but mostly I found the letter interesting because although my sister is not nearly as bad as "Anna," what the writer said about her friend reminded me of the way my sister talks sometimes. I have noticed her interest in others' eating habits and weight has really increased in the last few years, and it doesn't make me more insecure about my weight and size, but it does make me uncomfortable for two reasons. One, I'm trying to have a more positive attitude about my body and I think one of the best ways to do that is to stop judging others for what they eat and how they look. And two, I am always on guard for comments she may make that obliquely chide me about my weight.

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Friday, March 02, 2007
Here's an update on what I've been reading, listening to and watching for the past few weeks.

Reading: The Magnificent Ambersons by Booth Tarkington. I picked this up again the other day while the people were here assembling my desk.

Listening: Hip Tranquil Chick and This American Life podcasts.
Judy Garland - The Capitol Years. For some reason, Judy Garland was the only music I listened to for a while there.
Van Morrison - Astral Weeks. Listened to a bit of this yesterday.
Oh yeah - and I played my Soul Mix for the guys who assembled my desk. I said, "Want some music?" and they said yes, so I put that on.

Watching: Little Miss Sunshine (2006) starring Greg Kinnear, Toni Collette and Abigail Breslin. I loved this movie. To quote Sweetie, "Truly funny. And it goes over a lot of well-trodden territory without ever being predictable or cliched, which is always one of the most impressive artistic achievements to me."

Battlestar Galactica, Season 2.
Dr. Katz: Professional Therapist, Season 2.
Six Feet Under, Season, Season 5.

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Reading, Listening and Watching

Reading: If You See the Buddha on the Road, Kill Him! by Sheldon Kopp. I'm finding this a bit hard to get through. Also, it seems to be about people who are looking for a guru or treating their therapist as one, and that doesn't seem to be true for me.

The Magnificent Ambersons by Booth Tarkington. I had to skip a chapter or two of this one near the beginning because I just hated reading about that obnoxious little kid. Of course, he's pretty obnoxious as an adult too - ugh.

Listening: Recent
Hip Tranquil Chick podcasts. I listened to a couple of these while working out on my elliptical trainer today.

Watching: Curb Your Enthusiam, Season Five. We finished this season, and I believe that was the end of the series. As I said before, the main character is unlikable, and the show is offensive, but it's also really funny.

Miss Marple: The Body in the Library (2004) starring Geraldine McEwan. They are having a run of Miss Marple mysteries on public TV here, with the "new" Miss Marple as played by Geraldine McEwan, and I tape them. This week's coming installment, Sleeping Murder, is one I that I saw before with Joan Hickson in the title role. I think I like Geraldine McEwan even better, and the stories are so good and complex, I can watch them again anyway.

The Mary Tyler Moore Show, Season Four. I'm about two thirds of the way through this, and looking forward to the release of season five. I'm very hopeful that they will release the whole series eventually. And I saw that season one of Rhoda is now listed on amazon. Its listing says "not yet released" but I signed up to be e-mailed when it is. Rhoda is another of my favorite shows so this is good news indeed.

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Childhood Book Meme

Got this from Joanna at
FriendSheep. Here's the rap: list 5 books that played an important role in your childhood and explain why. I don't know about you, but books were a big part of my childhood so I can't narrow this down to five. There are also books I can't remember the title or author of, but here are some that come to mind:

The Children of Noisy Village by Astrid Lindgren (Joanna reminded me of this one), Ballet Shoes by Noel Streatfield, A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Saturdays by Elizabeth Enright and a bunch of other books by Elizabeth Enright. I also read and reread the Cathy books by Catherine Woolley and the Betsy books by Carolyn Hayward and the Little House books by Laura Ingalls Wilder and Lois Lenski's books. There was also a biography of Louisa May Alcott that I took out of the Plainville Public Library a bunch of times.

Why did I like these books? Well, they were mostly about girls and I always loved to read about girls, especially smart and pretty girls who were having adventures. Also most of them were about the past, a time that I always thought I would be much better suited to living in than the present. I would read these books over and over wishing my life could be like the girls' lives in these books.

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